I go to bed early, wake up early, and have no desire to party… no wonder they call me grandma!
Dear whoever may be reading this, I sure hope that if you can relate, you find comfort in this. You aren’t alone!
Over the years, I’ve definitely changed and grown tremendously as a person. Years ago, I was a little more unorganized and less motivated to get things done, as most kids are. Then, somewhere along the way, I became more and more determined to accomplish things- so much so that I’ve become somewhat of a workaholic. In my last years of high school I would constantly be writing things down and checking it to make sure I wasn’t missing a thing- and now I’m wondering how I ever remembered everything without writing it down! This of course all started because I wanted a really pretty Lilly Pulitzer planner (lol) but it did really improve my life. These days, if I have a “free” moment I can’t let myself keep it free. I’ll either go to the gym, work on my website, business pages, emails, etc. I don’t even watch TV unless my sister is watching it in the background! Yes, I know I sound completely elderly right about now. In fact, I feel inclined to add that while I was writing this post, my sister came down and I asked her why she was up, and she said “Because it’s only 8:30.” (LOL)
While it feels good to get things done through this compulsive work habit, I meanwhile see my friends hanging out, going places, and getting pizza downtown. Of course it upsets me and makes me wish I was out doing those things too, but by the end of the day, I’m pretty much too tired to go anywhere, or if I do go out with a friend, I feel guilty for not working on something “productive.” I know that I definitely need more of a balance, and to allow myself more time to breathe, but if you are just like me, I want you to know it is OKAY! I’m here to tell you I understand. I understand how tired you are but how much your mind won’t let you take a break. I understand how in one instance you feel like you are wasting your life doing something recreational, while in another way you feel that your life is slipping by while you work. I understand that you might feel like you are pushing your friends to the side when that really is the last thing you want to do. If you are feeling guilty about your work ethic, you need to hear this: your hard work pays in amazing ways. You will get so far with such a strong determination. And you also need to know that it is important to have friends who support you and will be understanding on those days (many days) that you just can’t make it because you’re working on something, or drained from working. With all that said, I hope this has helped you in some way if you can relate. I am right here with you and here for you! Now, go take an early shower and be in bed by 9:30 like the grandma-of-the-year that you are!